New Year, New Post

January 01, 2016

New Year, New Post

Per usual....I'm starting off the year writing a blog post and recognizing how absent I have been in the writing/blog world. I'm not going to say that I'll do any better this year, though as always, I hope I do.

2015 was a year. It wasn't a particularly great or horrible year - so it was just a year.
Some wonderful things did happen, like the birth of my absolutely incredible and adorable niece, Juniper; but some not so great things happened as well. Like, to be completely blunt and honest, being sued for money problems you didn't even knew existed {or at least not that money problem in particular}. Yay adult life!

Because of the events of 2015 we have landed in places we didn't know we would be. Example, we have moved back in with my parents. We went from having an apartment, to renting a house, to moving back home. Not all that uncommon anymore, but moving an hour away from friends, work, and your church family is not easy. Don't get me wrong, we are so incredibly grateful that my parents are even in the position they are to let us have our OWN apartment in their house {seriously, my parents are amazing, gracious, loving, caring, servant hearted, wonderful people. I can't thank them enough - we really wouldn't be able to financially survive right now if it weren't for them blessing us with this opportunity} but, that doesn't mean it comes without challenges. So we are navigating this new time in our lives in this new year.

Ever since graduating from undergrad I've been searching. Not really sure what for, but searching nonetheless. I think Clay has too. And as we enter into this new year, for the first time since college, I have a feeling that something big is on the horizon. God, I hope there is.

I'm searching for purpose, meaningfulness, intentionality, belonging, calling, the list goes on...and who isn't?

You know that feeling you get when you're anticipating something? Like when you know someone is about to walk through the door at their surprise party and you're holding out for the moment when you can yell "SURPRISE!!" - yeah, that's kind of how I feel. Knowing that something is just around the corner, but unsure of the exact moment it will appear, anticipating the work God is going to do, and waiting for my moment to say "surprise" or more accurately, "What?!? This is what you had planned?? Thank you, Lord!" So I guess really it would more be liked God yelling "Surprise!" at me.... but you get what I mean.

Take a look at the second definition of the word "anticipation":

an·tic·i·pa·tion

anˌtisəˈpāSH(ə)n/

noun

noun: anticipation; plural noun: anticipations

the action of anticipating something; expectation or prediction.

"her eyes sparkled with anticipation"

synonyms: expectancy, expectation, excitement, suspense More
- MUSIC
  
  the introduction in a composition of part of a chord that is about to follow in full.

Being a bit of a music nerd, I love this. An introduction in a piece that is about to follow in full.

It's a beginning, a debut, a starting point, a genesis. I'm waiting for God to show me the beginning of the next chord in mine and Clay's composition - so to speak.

However, as I wait on the Lord and His timing for whatever this next step may be I can't forget to reflect on the good things we have experienced in this past year. Focusing on the positives, learning from the negatives, and preparing for this next year of life. His will be done.